Sunday, February 25, 2007

Mid-Life Crisis...

I have decided I must be going through a mid-life crisis. I just turned 38...had a lovely birthday I might add...and am considering the fact that my life hasn't gone the way I had planned...duh..
My kids are 1/2 grown and although I had hoped to remarry and have at least two more children and not raise my family as a single parent, that dream doesn't seem to be materializing. I mean, how many years will I state boldly "This time next year I will be married and pregnant"? Obviously too many as nobody believes that statement any more than they believe that I am actually going to marry or have actually broken up with Kemp. Which, I might add, may have something to do with the fact that I am not married or pregnant year after year. But I digress...Mid-life crisis... In about 10 years I will no longer have children at home. If all goes as planned...and very few things in my life ever do, but I am holding out for this one...Jacob and Sarah will both be on missions. Now we all know how fast 10 years goes by...don't we? So, when I am 48 and both Sarah and Jacob are on Missions, what am I going to do? Hopefully I will not still be selling antiques on Ebay...OK, I've been doing that for almost 10 years now and I think I have grown enough from that experience. I am grateful I have been able to do it and stay home with my kids, but a professional garage-saler/ebay specialist was not what I wanted to be when I grew up... When I was 10, I stated boldly that I was going to be the 1st woman president... When I was 12, I wanted to be an attorney...yikes! When I was 16, I wanted to be an Arby's manager. (There's ambition for you!) When I was 18 I wanted to be an architect. When I was in college, I couldn't figure out what I wanted to be. When I was 22 I wanted to be a wife and mother. When I was 30, I no longer wanted to be a wife EVER! When I was 34, I changed my mind and thought it might be nice to be a wife to a nice person. Now I am 38 and I don't know what to be...I can't go on being a hippie forever...can I? Can I? Perhaps it is time to grow up...AAKKK! I never did want to do that. But I definitely don't want to be one of those old ladies who never grew up...I am afraid they are some of the people we see walking the streets with shopping carts filled with stuff. Actually, more than that...what the heck am I supposed to do with my life‽ (By the way, that is called an interrobang.) (Do you think I have ADD?) Anyway...that's my blog for today...


4 comments:

Paige said...

Thanks for the little English lesson. Do you have Interrobang on your keyboard?

And you know what? Even those of us whose lives have gone as planned have those "what am I going to do with my life" feelings. You are doing very well with the cards you have been dealt, already. You'll figure it out.

Amy said...

Robin,

Happy birthday! I hope it can be a fun day, despite the mid-life crisis. I've always thought you were the coolest person, from the time I started carving the name ROBIN out of my apple slices at dinner...

May your dreams come true, either in your time or the Lord's, and have fun with your kids. Oh, and come check out my blog, too--I'm at
Illustratormommy/blogspot.com

Sharmyn said...

Robin!!!
Just found your blog. Yee haw! O.K. guess what - I grew up with a Vanagon. The exact one you have. Ours was pea green with green plaid interior. Very cool. I used to drive it in highschool. I miss you - you are still cool!

Sharmyn said...

Robin!!!
Just found your blog. Yee haw! O.K. guess what - I grew up with a Vanagon. The exact one you have. Ours was pea green with green plaid interior. Very cool. I used to drive it in highschool. I miss you - you are still cool!